there are so many thing that happen lately....and my mind is full of things that are not related to my studies. I do not know why there are so many obstacles that i'm facing right now. I'm afraid of ppl disliking me but there is nothing i could do to stop ppl from disliking me or talking behind my back. I just have to face it...face the problems. Let them talk whatever they one....what they think about me and everything. At the end of the day... i'll still be evaluated by my father in heaven. I'll know that, that would be a very just comfirmation of my life and faith in him. Although faith in him fails most of the time....,I'll have to just trust that he is still there by my side. There are many things that happened lately... i do not know whom to turn to. As i've alrd shared to so many people and now everybody seem to be looking at me one of a kind and maybe i'm being too emotional during that time that causes this kind of impact on myself.
But there are many things that i learn. From now on...I'll just let ppl know abt the surface of my life and not everything. Is not that I dont trust anyone...is just that things like that happens and they talk among themselves about it....and i understand that i was the one who started all the hu-ha abt this particular person that i'm interested in. But anyway things are not the same now. My life remains my life.... his is his. We are friends....and this is the last time i'm going to write abt this topic....end of story......
close topic...full stop.....cass please dont ever talk abt it anymore!!!! plur lease....a big full stop alrite....is a deal between i, my, me....lol
stay strong cass....the right one would not be soon.... but you just have to wait and trust God.....let God decide for you in his ways....concerntrate on other things.....which are more important.
Be still for the presence of the Lord the holy one is here,
come bow before him now...with reverance and fear,
in him no sin is found,
we stand on holy ground,
be still for the presence of the Lord,
the holy one is here. 
Beautiful lord,
wonderful savior,
i know for sure all of my days are held in your hands,
crafted into ,
your prefect plan,
you gently call me,
into your presence,
guiding me by, your holy spirit,
teach me dear lord, to leave all my life,
through your eyes,
I'm captured by your holy calling,
set me apart, i know you are drawing me to yourself,
teach me lord i pray.
Take me, mould me, use me, feel me.
I gave my life to the potter's hands.
lord, again i put all the things under your loving hands...help me not to waver anymore...help me to put my whole faith into your loving hands...guide me lord forever...Amen...keep me save...help me not to be easily hurt because of my own emotions...not how otheres view me...but wht i thought abt the way others view me....help me not to ever to that anymore as it is not benefical at all...
in all things...help me to thank you..thank you God...there would be only between you and I
I'll never share things to anyone....unless i really trust them...this i make my conviction with you...me ....named (xxxxxx), would not let anybody know deep within me without a purpose..the most i would do is just blog abt it...and try not to let ppl aroumd know abt things that would not benefit others at all. 
father...again...i would just leave everything under your loving hands,.... i'm jst too tired abt everything...mid-exams and assignments...are overloading.And i just cant take it sumtimes..there are many things that I'm suppose to do..but i end up not doing because of my own emotions...it often block me from heading forward...i have to learn how to stand up....please help me in the assignments and help my group members and i in the donation drive on thursday. Pray that i would not get hurt easily on un nessasary things. 
thetruehutien signs.
Loving you dear Lord.